Two hearts with one stone.

Have you ever seen a child's face when they realize that something they wanted isn't going to happen? I had to see that face tonight as my brother walked onto the stage for his choir concert and saw that our father wasn't sitting with me. Before we left dad swore he would be there. I left early to get him there in time for practice before the concert and called five minutes before the start and my other brother told me that he had gone back to bed. That he didn't want to get up. Seeing that look on my baby brother's face killed me tonight. I know that look and feeling all too well. He never went to any of my things, but always swore he would. Carl was so excited cause dad had changed his mind and said he would go and looked like he was going to cry when he saw me sitting without him.

I am so incredibly pissed off at my father it isn't fathomable. I got home with Carl and went straight to dad's room and loudly said "I hope you're happy, you really hurt your son tonight." and walked out. I hope that asshole feels bad.

I swear to God I will be at every event my child has. I NEVER want he or she to know what this feeling feels like. I WILL do better than my parents did. So help me God.