Perhaps the last arguement I'll ever have with him...

Amanda Rose: So I'm guessing your phone works just fine
chris denbow: no, my phone got shut off
chris denbow: I'm on the comp
Amanda Rose: Calls go through, get a full set of rings and then voicemail. Not what shut off phones do.
chris denbow: my phone hasn't rang once, not one text message
chris denbow: I can't call out
chris denbow: no data connection
Amanda Rose: -shrugs-
chris denbow: but ok, nice to see you don't believe me about that
Amanda Rose: I never said I didn't believe you, I'm just sick of it being one things after another
chris denbow: ok, well, nothing I can do about it right now, it's either rent or my phone bill
Amanda Rose: Understandable
chris denbow: I might just go back to a prepay phone as soon as I can
Amanda Rose: ok
Amanda Rose: straight talk is pretty good
chris denbow: yeah, so I've heard, I'll look around
Amanda Rose: ok
chris denbow: brb
Amanda Rose: ok
Amanda Rose: Just out of mild curiosity, when did your phone get shut off?
chris denbow: a couple days ago
Amanda Rose: A message sooner would have been nice...
chris denbow: I was just able to get on
Amanda Rose: You have a laptop, how are you just now able to get on?
chris denbow: not a laptop
chris denbow: desktop
Amanda Rose: Whatever
Amanda Rose: it still has internet
Amanda Rose: Or did that suddenly disapear too?
chris denbow: I was on yesterday and I didn't see you on when I was
chris denbow: granted I had slept most the day because of work
Amanda Rose: And you can't leave an offline message?
Amanda Rose: I'm sorry if I'm being bitchy, but I'm under enough stress without having to worry about why you've all of a sudden disapeared.
chris denbow: I'd rather tell you when we're both on then an offline message
Amanda Rose: Then in that case, you will have to deal with me being a bitch.
chris denbow: fine
Amanda Rose: You scared the shit out of me
chris denbow: I'm sorry, I didnt mean to
chris denbow: just haven't been on the comp much
Amanda Rose: What did you think would happen Chris?
Amanda Rose: Being someone who's dealt with me running, you should know how it would have made me feel.
Amanda Rose: It's become painfully obvious that you only have time for everything else going on in your life, and that's fine, if you don't want this relationship to work.
chris denbow: I do, I was working and sleeping, sorry I didn't get on and tell you, I really am sorry
Amanda Rose: Babe.... that's all I get though...
Amanda Rose: You saying sorry but nothing changing
chris denbow: I can't do much about my job right now
Amanda Rose: If you need time to fix your life then just say so. I can give you space, I can leave. Just tell me what you need cause I'm sick of everything I try blowing up in my face
chris denbow: I don't need space
Amanda Rose: Then what do you need?
chris denbow: a new job
Amanda Rose: Because if you can't be here for me now when I need you most, how can I expect you to be here in the future?
chris denbow: I'm trying to be here, but all you see is I'm not
chris denbow: not the fact my boss is being a douche about scheduling
Amanda Rose: I wouldn't see that, now would I? You never talk to me.
chris denbow: I've tried telling you that
chris denbow: I told you all I really do is work and sleep
chris denbow: I'm on when I can be because of him
chris denbow: he has me work 1-
chris denbow: gah
chris denbow: 10 pm to 7 am friday through sunday, then has me work during the day tuesday wednesday and then 10 pm to 2 am on thursday
chris denbow: its not that I don't want to be on or talk to you, I'm just exhausted
Amanda Rose: Then focus on work and sleep.
chris denbow: no
Amanda Rose: That's what you're doing now Chris. And I'm starting to get used to it.
chris denbow: I'm not trying to focus on that
chris denbow: I'm stressed, exhausted, and I've honestly had some stupid thoughts lately
Amanda Rose: You may not be trying too, but that's what you're doing. So I'm done fighting for time and twiddling my thumbs.
chris denbow: so we're breaking up now?
Amanda Rose: I didn't say that.
Amanda Rose: And you wanna hear stressed?
chris denbow: I know you are too
chris denbow: I never said mine was worse
Amanda Rose: I have a fucking tube in my arm and chest! My dad almost died!
chris denbow: how's your dad doing?
Amanda Rose: My family is fucking falling apart and tearing each other open in the process
Amanda Rose: and the one person I depend on to be there for me is never there anymore
Amanda Rose: Nver shows he cares, never asks about anything until I bring it up and never gives that affection he claims he needs so badly from me
chris denbow: I'll brb, need food
Amanda Rose: That's it, I'm done.
Amanda Rose: Fix your life and decide what you really want. If you decide that that's still me, and you can actually be there and a part of it, then message me.
Amanda Rose: I'm having a baby, I need someone I can rely on, who can be an active part of our lives. I don't need to sit here stressed because I don't hear from you. I have too much on my plate already.
chris denbow: I'm going to get some food and calm down before I say something really stupid
chris denbow: so I will be back in a few
Amanda Rose: I won't be online.
Amanda Rose: And if I am, I won't respond. I meant what I said.
chris denbow: really? so you are going to say that and leave when I'm right here trying to talk to you? yet bitch that I'm not doing anything?
Amanda Rose: I try to do stuff mid discussion/arguement and you get pissed and tell me not to run away from you. What the hell do you call it when you do it?
Amanda Rose: I'm done talking and NOTHING changing
chris denbow: I'm not running away, I'm getting some damn food
chris denbow: I'm hungry and haven't eaten since tuesday
Amanda Rose: I'm done CRYING MY EYES OUT cause you can't take the time to respond to me 98% of the time
Amanda Rose: I doubt that Christopher
chris denbow: I really haven't
Amanda Rose: I go two days without food and have to be hospitalized
Amanda Rose: Trust me, I know. It's been done FOUR TIMES IN TWO WEEKS
chris denbow: because of the BABY
Amanda Rose: That's why I have a fucking tube in my arm.
chris denbow: that's why
Amanda Rose: How would you know, you don't care to ask.
Amanda Rose: Good night. Go get your food. I'm done with talks that go no where.
chris denbow: wow
Amanda Rose: Don't wow me.
chris denbow: I jsut did
chris denbow: doesn't matter I'm here now
chris denbow: no, it's all what's already past
chris denbow: that's all that ever matters to people
Amanda Rose: Why should it? I get to sit here and wonder if you'll go silent tomorrow.
Amanda Rose: Nothing changes
Amanda Rose: you get better for two days and then leave me in silence again
chris denbow: because of work
Amanda Rose: I'll gladly show you blog posts that prove it cause I bitch about it all the time
chris denbow: nothing I can really do about work
Amanda Rose: Work never stopped you before
Amanda Rose: I know you get breaks
Amanda Rose: you can't send a quick message? "Hey miss you"
chris denbow: I am a shift leader overnight, I can't leave the store
chris denbow: and I have
Amanda Rose: Bullshit
Amanda Rose: no ones phone only sucks for ONE CONTACT
chris denbow: it's not just you
Amanda Rose: You're the one who tells me it works just fine for everyone else
chris denbow: I found that out the other day
Amanda Rose: And I have conversations for that too
Amanda Rose: Thanks for the update!
Amanda Rose: You don't think that's something your girlfriend would like to know?!
chris denbow: kinda hard to tell you that when all you want to do is snap at me
chris denbow: I'm trying to defend myself against an onslaught of what's going on with you
chris denbow: and how you feel about me being an asshole and everything else
Amanda Rose: All I'm upset at you for is the shit you're doing
Amanda Rose: not for everything else going on in my life
chris denbow: and I'm trying to fix it
chris denbow: but I don't message you for a day and you flip
Amanda Rose: In four months we've done nothing but go further and further down hill no matter how much we talk
chris denbow: I don't hold it against you, yet you hold everything against me
Amanda Rose: and it wasn't a day you jackass I haven't heard from you since TUESDAY
Amanda Rose: it's SATURDAY
chris denbow: I was saying in general
chris denbow: this is what I'm talking about
chris denbow: I'm not cussing at you, I'm not calling you names
chris denbow: give me the same decency
Amanda Rose: You're right, you're doing nothing wrong and I'm just a bitch. I tell you want, I'll make your life easier. You no longer have to deal with me being a bitch for no reason.
chris denbow: Stop
chris denbow: I didnt say that
chris denbow: nor implied it
Amanda Rose: That's how you come across
Amanda Rose: every time
chris denbow: I'm saying stop cussing and calling me names
Amanda Rose: You said I blame you for everyhing
Amanda Rose: I only see the bad
Amanda Rose: that's because there are rarely good moment anymore
Amanda Rose: the bad are slowly out weighing all the good
Amanda Rose: and I can't take that anymore
chris denbow: then why are you ehre
chris denbow: if it's all bad as you make it, why are you here
chris denbow: because the only real problem is the not talking
Amanda Rose: I've been asking myself that for a month and I keep telling myself it's because I'm still head over heals in love with you
chris denbow: yet you can call me every name under the sun?
Amanda Rose: I called you a jackass
chris denbow: and?
Amanda Rose: how is that every name under the sun?
chris denbow: there's been more then just jackass
Amanda Rose: I'm done.
chris denbow: no, stop
chris denbow: do you realize that you called me good for nothing before?
Amanda Rose: I've been through every conversation we've ever had in the last week, and no I haven't.
chris denbow: in the last week, no
Amanda Rose: I WENT THROUGH TEHM ALL
chris denbow: do you have every conversation before that?
Amanda Rose: you don't listen to me
chris denbow: No, look at what you said
Amanda Rose: I have all of them since November
chris denbow: through every conversation we've ever had in the last week
chris denbow: that's what you said
chris denbow: so don't get pissy at me because of what you typed
Amanda Rose: So I forgot a fucking comma my bad
Amanda Rose: I'm done argueing with you cause you're always right and I'm always a bitch.
chris denbow: ok, and now I realise I misread
chris denbow: my fault
Amanda Rose: I can't do this anyore Chris....
chris denbow: one more chance is all I ask
chris denbow: if I can't do what needs to be done, I won't hold it against you
chris denbow: just one more chance....please...
Amanda Rose: How can you hold it against me now? I'm already trying everything I can
chris denbow: I'm not holding it against you
chris denbow: I'm just saying
chris denbow: I really want to talk to you and fix my mistakes in this
Amanda Rose: How many times have you told me that we could fix things, that you could fix things?
Amanda Rose: I can't be strong enough for all three of us Chris, I'm barely strong enough to keep me and baby going
chris denbow: I know, just give me one more chance to be who I should be again
chris denbow is typing...
chris denbow: brb, landlord is here
Amanda Rose: I have to think about it... I'll talk to you later

I signed out because I can't handle this right now. Idk if I can give him another shot or not... Maybe letting him sit and be scared a while would be good. But I still don't know what the hell to do right now...