God really can't let me have anything I want and I'm getting so incredibly sick of it! What did I do to deserve this!? HUH!? Did I come up there and slap you in the face?! NO! So give me a fucking break for a change!
Things with Jack aren't happening like I thought. He's still with Jen yet tells me how he wants to be there for me and the baby and I'm just fucking done with that bullshit. Just done.
My disability got denied, again. Apparently having all my doctors say I can't work isn't good enough for the judge, I'm still not disabled enough.
HOW THE FUCK AM I GOING TO PROVIDE FOR ME BABY!?!?
Why would God make me go through this?!
Rape.
HPV.
Pregnancy.
Heartbreak.
Unemployed for fucking ever.
What am I going to do? I am so scared.... I can't stop crying... why does God keep putting me through all this... I don't want to be a single parent, let alone unable to provide for my baby. State aid only helps so much and I'm on my parent's food stamps until they move out or I turn 22 and they don't use the food stamps for me now, how am I going to get them to use the $50 I contribute a month when the baby is here and I really need it?
A gun has never looked so good....
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