To the ER and back again. -_-

So after some awesome drama yesterday with my aunt and father, I realized that my urine was a combination of red, brown and orange. All things you can expect to see if your kidneys start to bleed. So my aunt rushed me to the ER and they make me pee in a cup. I actually took a picture of what it looked like, but I wonder if that's an over share or not. -shrugs-

Anyways. Doctor perscribed me safe allergy meds, and ran a test on my pee. They also decided I needed another full liter of IV fluids in my system. T_T It took them six tries and four nurses. One was a student nurse. Poked the top of my right hand twice time. The first time, she didn't even get the needle in because when she took the plastic off it she got some of the plastic stuck around the needle tip. That was fun. The second one was her teacher, who was actually a nurse. She got in my hand alright, but the vein rolled around and played hide and seek once she got under the skin. That's a lovely bruise and I feel it with ever key my right hand hits. It's not super bad at least.

The head nurse working that night right a vein in my wrist. After having it do the tuck and roll on her she looked at me and said "I think we should call Suzy, she's on call this weekend." to which I was almost giddy about. I LOVE SUZY. She rocks. One of the few people trained in anestetics. (The people that put you out before surgery!) Which means she's allowed to give you a shot of lidacane before digging around for a vein. Simply lovely. Literally.

So, what I want you to do is stick your thumb out like a hitch hiker does and look at it for a second. Now start at your thumb nail and follow it straight down to your wrist. You may not be able to see it, but everyone has a vein there. Suzy numbed and tris there first. No luck. Vein avaided her with every jab of that needle. Thankfully, I felt almost nothing. Next, she tried my right elbow, the one they stabbed once the previous night. All the other nurses said it couldn't be done. Suzy numbed it and had the vein in under a minute. It was awesome. The stopper got stuck again though xD Not like the night before! It wasn't nearly as much blood this time. But it was funny.

Along with the IV meds they gave me a shot of my stomach meds and some chocolate pudding. Once the pudding was down they gave me my first dose of antibiotics. Why? Because I have a really bad UTI (Urinary Track Infection) Now, anyone woman who's dealt with one is going to wonder why I couldn't smell the infection before it got so bad. Well, honestly, with my sinuses and this cold I haven't been able to smell much of anything sadly. So five days of antibiotics and it should be cleared up and my potty parts should be back in working order. And yes, a UTI can begin to shut down your kidneys, which is why there was blood in my urine. (If you didn't know that, don't feel bad. The doctor explained it all to me last night.)

Now you're probably going to ask me why I'm up so early. That is simply because a coughing spell started at 4:30 am and woke my butt up. It sucked. So feeling some inspiration I figured I'd update my reader. I don't have many at this point, but I'm not worried about it. I know the ones I have care. <3 That's all that matters. And I won't let that stop me from posting either.

You may be wondering how Chris is doing, since I haven't mentioned him in the last two blogs. Well, honestly, he got real pissy with me last night. I haven't been seeing him on messenger often, and he never responds to my texts and tells me it's my phone cause he texts his friends just fine. I knew he was at work when I got home so sent the same message 10 times, knowing he was getting my messages and after 10 times he'd be so irritated he'd answer.

"Since I haven't seen you on messenger, and you can't bring yourself to respond to any of my previous texts, I just thought you should know that I was in the ER again tonight."

So he asked what was going on and I explained to him all the drama and what has me sick and why I keep needing fluids. The minute I bring up Chad and my warning about pressing charges if he texts me again he flips and goes "The cops will have to find him before I do!" And I texted this exact message "oh stop. I've had to deal with dad all day. He called the cops after i told him to stay out of it and that I was taking care of it." Him "So? I'm protective, you know this." That's why you responded to my messages when I was in the ER, right? So at this point I was upset and said "Yes and I've dealt with enough stress today already. So keep the protective talk to yourself, please." He flipped out and I flipped on better. Cause for once he was the one appologizing at the end of the arguement.

Him: Wow, me being protective is stressful now? I will just talk to you tomorrow, love you, goodnight

Me: You asshole!! Fuck you then. I can't believe I thought you'd be understanding!
I didn't say YOU were stressful, just that I've already dealt with too much today.

Him: I am, I don't want to cause a fight its why I stopped
I was going to leave you alone tonight

Me: Yea, cause I don't need you at all after I've had a shit day and been in the hospital for the second night in a row, right? Is that really what you think?
You tell me how you're afraid of me running. Maybe you should worry less about that and more about how distant YOU are and how you push me away so much.

Him: I know babe, but with what's going on at work, I'm cranky and don't want to take it out on you
I've been accused of stealing money 3 times now, i'm making minimum wage at a manager position

Me:If you have to seperate yourself from me every time you're upset then how much time with you would I really get if we lived together? can you understand why I'd worry about that? It makes me afraid of saying anything because silence terrifies me Chris. Silence is emptiness and I'm sick of feeling empty with my life here.

Him: I'm sorry, I just don't want to add to your stress right now because my boss is an asshole, I do care and want to talk.

Me: Then show it. Cause your first reaction is what my parents do. When they do that it means i'm a burden and they can't stand me being around. It hurt.
Don't make me suffer cause you can't seperate me from work.

Him: I'm sorry

Me: I love you so much Chris, but you make it hard sometimes and I'm trying to deal with it. But with everything else going on I really need you to be there for me and sometimes that means me venting angrilly about life. I'm not mad with you, just that everything is going to hell and crumbling around me.

Him: *nods and kisses*

So I'm not entirely a bitch, but at the same time I feel I had a right to tell him how I felt. Sorry this update is so long and there's a lot of words that need fixing spelling wise, but I'm finally ready to go back to bed. So Night all.