So... I'm a horrible person. I know this because I'm still technically with Chris, but have started a relationship with an ex of mine. An ex that is just about everything I want in a guy and that has never really treated me badly. We broke up due to complications that weren't our fault. The only downside is he still lives in the one and only state I hate: Texas. And that's quite a ways away. I've known him a little longer than I've known Chris, and I've actually met him. Yea, I met him on GaiaOnline, same place I met Chris. But I've actually SEEN him. BEEN with him. Felt his gentle kiss and heard him whisper I love you in my ear. It was honestly the best part of last year, and it was nearly a year to the date. Mind you, we're off by a month, but it's only a month. I saw him last May and it was the best two weeks of my life.
He's caring, sweet and gentle, but can be very kinky and is amazing in bed. Mind you, he left me very sore every time we did anything, but I'm sure that if I had more time around him my body would... adjust to the size difference. <_<
Now don't get me wrong, I'm not with him because of the sex. That is just an amazing bonus. I'm actually in love with him. Going off into left field here, but I remember reading the Twilight books and wondering why Jacob meant when he said you can love more than one person at a time. I had never understood it at all. These two, make me understand it. Though my love for Chris dwindles to less and less every day - simply because of his neglect. With Jeff, I know and feel loved.
Anyways, about the title! I am SERIOUSLY behind on recolors. T_T I haven't done anything in two and a half weeks and I need to get several colors done by Monday. Mind you, if I work all day that won't be hard, but damnit I want my wireless mouse! D< This would be SO much easier with my wireless mouse. Alas, I cleaned my on Tuesday, and now I can't find the damn thing. -sigh- Back to work. T_T
I don't think your a horrible person...being with someone like Chris, it's only natural to gravitate towards someone who actually does make you feel loved.
ReplyDeleteI should have the decency to break up with him first, but some part of me still can't do it. Idk... maybe being with Jeff will help me get to that point.
ReplyDeleteOh, and completely left out a word in the last sentence. I cleaned my room. XD
Another bonus about Jeff is that he has no issues with the baby. There's no jealousy or weirdness and he's already told me he doesn't care who the father is, he will love it and care for it like it's his own. In my mind... that's something rare. I mean, look at Chris: We were/are in love and he still can't accomplish one bit of that. Sure, he says he loves the baby too, but only when I ask and he hesitates. But Jeff... we "roleplay" so to say, actually, we just put our actions in our texts and messages as well as what we want to say, and he's constantly touching my belly and kissing it and just.... everything I've always dreamed of having when I was pregnant. How can I honestly pass that up?