Ah, he finally responded.

I've only sent the text 8 or so times, but he finally responded with "wtf" and I replied with "what" and he said "I do care". So, being the vindictive bitch that I know I am texted back "Couldn't tell tbh." Why? Cause I knew it would upset him. As mean as that is, I feel it necessary right now. It seems perfectly fine for him to act like a child, so, since I'm sick as hell, I'll meet him at his level. Cause obviously, talking to him as a rational adult is doing nothing.

But now I sit and wait for a reply. Again.

"I'm sorry, perhaps I'm being too blunt tonight. Or maybe the issue is that I haven't been blunt enough lately. Your lack of showing you care is going to make me leave. Not run for a few months, leave. I deserve to have someone who shows they care all the time, not just when I bitch. You aren't getting any cause I'm not."

Maybe he'll respond to that. If not, I guess I leave him through text message. Not what I wanted to do, but oh well. I'm sick of the bullshit.

And he responds with "not what?" God he's dumb.

"-sighs- I'll show you attention when you actually show me some. And simply texting while you're at work doesn't count."

"I'm not at work now, my phone was dead, sorry."

It's been dead for two hours? Unlikely.

"It's always something as to why i never hear from you unless I send a message. One day your phone doesn't get any, the next it gets everything. or it's dead. wtf."

"Idk I need a new phone"

"You said you already got a new phone. We were talking on the phone the day you got it. Tell me another line I haven't already heard chris."

"Yea, and this one is only slightly better."

You lying sack of shit.

"Yet its shittier and I hear from you less and you have more issues with messenger. Don't give me anymore bullshit. I'm done dealing with it."

"fine"

What, not going to get defensive this time? I guess I hit the nail right on the head then, huh? Fuck you too.

"If you really don't care enough to ask then grow a pair and just tell me. I'm sick of people pretending to car and not being there when I need them!"

And now I wait for a response again.

"I do care, I just never know when your apts are to ask."

Just another cop out.

"That's cause you never ask about them! You haven't once asked how me and teh baby are doing! Not even with me being in the er 3 times in 5 days! We've known almost 4 months and you haven't asked once. How am I supposed to just think you care?"

"idk"

"Idk either. And frankly, I don't think you care. which makes me not want to care."

"I do.."

Dots means he's starting to feel bad about it. Good. He should.

"You don't show it or act like it Chris.
I've been trying to talk through things with friends to get ideas on what I can do to change and they all say the same thing: that you're being childish and there isn't much I can do anymore."

"-nods-"

"Really? That's all I get? I'm trying to talk to you about things so we can fix them and you can't even give me a decent response? Why am I trying?"

And now I get to sit and eat a Mango ice cream bar while he attempts to pull his head out of his ass and actually respond.

I'll be back to edit and update when he finally responds. It's been 20 minutes.

So he finally responded. Apparently he was in the shower and it's not important to tell the person you're in an argument with that you're going to be afk. Whatever.

-sighs- Our argument ended in sex. Mind you, it's obviously not real sex, but it has a lot of the same components and the same ending. We both let off a little steam. And now he's sweet and affectionate. He admitted that he was stubborn and pig headed and that he has a lot to work on and I find myself having trouble hating him once more. It seems a little release helped us both.  I just... can't help but feel disappointment in myself. Perhaps for not being stronger, but... idk... I really do love him.